12.5.23

Had another counselling session. I dont think im comfortable with the counsellor tbh. He kinda laughs at me when i talk abt smth which makes me embarassed n he doesnt seem to take me seriously (which i see pretty much every adult is doing). Ofc there are some funny things ive said but he mostly laughs at the ones that r serious. Maybe im just too sensitive. Plus, if i were to talk abt my parents abt this, theyll most likely tell me to go through with it bc its counselling and to move to therapy i have to exceed their 'standards'. Plus plus, i have many other things ive not talked abt yet so rip ig :/

  and another thing, i have a feeling im not actually mentally ill LOL. Maybe just delusional for thinking that way. Dw guys i am NORMAL!!! ᕙ( •̀ ᗜ •́ )ᕗ

But there are serious things that need to be discussed abt. 

   Weve been having counselling sessions for over a month now n i still feel abxious talking to him. Maybe thats a sign i should pull out? But he seems like a genuinely nice man n the only way to therapy is through counselling (ಥ_ʖಥ) n its too late anyway (*꒦ິ꒳꒦ີ)

  After the session, we were forced to wait for my father cuz he had a meeting or smth idk. N we dont have money so we basically spent all that time doing NOTHING n it was HOT as hell. When he finished we went a restaurant n ate lol but i was rlly tired cuz i just wanted to go home and ive already slept in the car so to be awoken just to eat angered me yk.