I've been trying to work out even more, recently..!

I've been doing some somewhat regular workouts for a while,

a few years I'd do reps with the 5lbs weight and now I do about 20 reps on each arm with a 20lbs weight, about 5 on each arm to get 100 reps in!

I try doing that every few days or so but now I'm working on other parts of my body.

I don't wanna to workout to necessarily look hot or whatever but more to just BE STRONG. I played a lot of Yakuza (6,0,1,2, and currently on 3) and I got really inspired by Kiryu. Yeah he does look strong but if you as a dude that work out to hold a bike and swing it like it's nothing, he probably might not be able to with thaat much ease. I wanna be strong to lift up things easy and work out my WHOLE arm(s). 

I wanna be able to lift someone my own weight with ease but not like, stop, prepare myself and do that whole "Okay, hyup..!!" ya know?? eh, either way, I wanna be strong like Kiryu. I've been lifting my computer chair I sit on every so often. I'm sure you could pick it up but I can hold it without having to hold my breath and breath a little but I have to put it down after maybe 10-ish seconds cuz I don't wanna HURT myself at least. I wanna get to the point to where I can pick it up like you would just a bag or something.

Funny enough, I don't track myself THAAT much, more so when I workout so I know "okay, it's been a few days.." but I carry a bag around with me all the time and I was inspired to do that from RDR2. I love how Arthur has his satchel with just about everything he needs so for my birthday I mentioned to my parents how I wanted a bag like that. My mom got me this sick little bag that I can put ALL of what I need in it and even a little more. 

Either way, I've been putting more stuff and not realizing--It's actually been getting kinda heavy. My mom one time was like "here give me your bag" when I went to try on clothes and was surprised it was signifigantly heavier than she exepected. It's moments like that I realize, "Huh I AM getting stronger..!" Most people track themselves or take pictures, but I like not knowing, gives me reason to keep trying and to keep going at it!

All my life I've been pretty skinny and underweight, I was like 60lbs until highschool and barely 100lbs then. Now I've managed to gain more weight and I'm about 130-ish. It makes me really happy to see my arms and notice they don't look just plain straight but have a real shape to them now and they're only gonna look better the more I work out!

So my arms are pretty good, okay cool, but now I'm working more on my shoulders and back. I started holding the 10lbs weights and did some twist motion with my body and I felt it on the sides of my lower back and that work felt like it helped me with my balance. If I'm gonna swing a whole bike, I wanna be stable enough to not throw myself with it and get hurt. (Plus that would be really embarassing) It's about control, not just brute strength. I wanna be strong but know HOW to use what I have. You can have all the strength in the world but it doesn't mean anything if you don't know how to use it. I saw this video of a guy at the gym that was like "roid raging" or something, and threw a huge punch at some guy and when he missed, HIS WHOLE BODY FLIPPED.

 How embarrassing! That's why I'm not getting strong to look good, it's to be the best I can be and impress myself. I love getting stronger and not telling anyone because I really don't look like much so I love when people underestimate me. Before people would think I was weak because I was, and now they still do, but now I can stand my ground and use that to my advantage. Ain't nothing cooler than showing people there's a lot they still don't know out there!