Rants and thoughts

Life is so boring lately

Nothing is happening

Never anything going on

I just go to school sit around the go home and do the same thing till bed

I don't have a crush on any1 anymore, which by my surprise is pure agony because without it life isn't nerve racking anymore

School work is so draining, I don't even want to pick up a pencil, whenever I do I just draw/doodle over my work. 

I hate being forced to work, I would much rather create things

I know it's stupid and stereotypical for an Emo kid to hate school but you gotta think, 

Alternative kids are the most creative groups of people and school doesn't leave room for creativity, the only kind I get is picking an outfit for the day, which only takes like 10 minutes. 

I've taken all the art classes already, so much so I'm on my third year of a two year class ( I chose to go again) so yeah I got to create some things, but now my locker is full of shit I gotta take home, and the school year is almost over. 

God I'm so scared of what will happen over summer, not in the physical scared way, emotionally. All summer I bet you I won't be doing anything at all, no friends, no fun visits or whatever. 

The most I'll be doing over the summer is house sitting for my aunt while she goes to disney Land with her husband and step kids, good for her, she gets to do something with herself. 

So I'll be stuck in the house I've only ever been in twice, in the town I've never really been in, so I hope I find something to do out there. 

But there is one thing I'm looking forward to, my mom bought me some more black hair dye so I get to go back to that color again, which is exciting because last time didn't last very long ( we spend like 150 dollars to professionally dye it) so I hope this black box dye lasts longer, or we could just be able to reuse it multiple times. 

Lately I've been wanting to create a story to be told by a music album, I've always wanted to make music but I don't have the money for it, so I've been sticking to song writing. But I've got this great idea for an album that revolves around two characters ( a skeleton man and a zombie) who talk about living life, from their perspective I think it could get really cool. They're just an idea but I'll branch on it more some other time, maybe that's what I'll do with my summer. 

If you see a totally awesome and cool album drop, know itll be mine