existence

all my irl friends will never really know who i am and it makes me feel so guilty. :( like it’s not their fault that i don’t really exist. im their friend but they’re not mine i mean i guess they are but not really i just talk to them and try and appeal to the interests and personalities the best i can. i wonder how long i can keep this up for before i need to start distancing myself :/ 

i exist to only those who actually perceive me if people don’t perceive me then i was never really there