Creation, creation, creation!!

I've always had this goal in mind, but one thing I really want out of life is to be my own boss. 

This past year, I've been reflecting on how I can create a career that will sustain me, and my future children. 

Working at the library is decent, but I would love to pull more than 26k a year working for the county library. I want to build a career where I do almost the same thing: create and enjoy life. But I would love to ALSO be able to afford my bills and take time off when I need to, and to not wake up at 6 in the morning every weekday. 

I'm already a workaholic so working isn't the issue. The issue is working for the government, working for a boss, and not getting enough time to work on my own projects. 

I have two projects that I am working on that may take me a number of years, because of having a full time job and also being a full time college student. Having already a workload and then adding more is hard, but if it benefits my future, it's okay. I can handle that stress until I have myself comfortable and settled. 

The first project I've been working on has been my online zine, but the second is making music. 

Yes, I know, everybody wants to make music these days. But I have always been a musician since elementary. I played the cello for ten years, and the piano since I was a toddler. And then life got in the way, being exhausted from work all the time, being uninspired. I also have manic depression disorder which causes me to barely function at times, and when I don't get the time off to recooperate, my body everyday just starts running off fumes, and I never get the time to refuel, which makes me uninspired. 

I've been really depressed but I started a new "diet" (really just a lifestyle change), and these past two weeks I have been extremely clear headed, which makes me delve into creativity. 

I graduate in the fall, and I'm supposed to be diving right into my graduate program, but I'm unsure if I should do that, or work on my projects for a year before I go to school with another boatload of work hindering me from completing my projects. 

The goal is to always look forward, not give up, and stay inspired.