ypercardiodouleia

woke up at 3am to study for my two back-to-back mathematics exams today. the ones whose grades i have been stressing about. i am half a nos in and got an 8oz redbull in my bag ready to go. both last 2.5hrs, with thirty minutes between them. that means i am not out of the weeds for another, at most (and also most likely), eight hours... and i have already been here for four. boy, oh boy. but, i now am a lot more confident about my knowledge on the topics, and here's hoping the my efforts pay off and i don't pass out mid-exam haha.

fuck stats, all my homies hate stats. calc is a bit better, but all my homies for <i>sure</i> hate calc.

now that i have read everything i feel i <i>need</i> to read, i think i will give myself an hour to walk around outside. let the sun see me. maybe come to my senses a bit more. hopefully not pass out on a bench under the warm may morning sun. at least, for an hour, before i do one final round of revisions through my big calc book i almost forgot this morning and my low-context stats notes.