i haven't been here in awhile

as the title says. i haven't been on here or updating in a while so take this as a thing for a quick update and to say i'm still alive.

a lot of things have happened lately and shit has gotten busy. most things hated though the rest was pretty good. i was finally able to buy myself a new skateboard after the snow cleared up and i had enough money, which was pretty good. except for the many falls i've had whilst riding around, ive been having a lot of fun. simply just falling won't stop me nor probably will a broken bone, though i'm hoping that doesnt happen to me..

other things, ive gone to a couple concerts lately too. more.  two of them were just small shows but i love going to them, i like seeing and supporting smaller bands. always a very welcoming place at those places with pretty fun pits if there's enough people. another concert i've went to was a big band, one of my favourites actually, which was super exciting to see. it was silverstein and a couple other bands alongside them like one step closer and sysc which were hella good, i especially enjoyed sysc. even bought a really nice shirt for them. overall one of the best and most fun shows i've been too. i can't wait to be able to go to more soon.

oh, and i also managed to get sick right after the concert too. which was and still is absolutely horrible, i feel like shit currently. so sick. i hate being sick like this, hate not being able to breathe and the coughing, fuck the coughing. i feel like my lungs are gonna drop out of my body with every cough and my chest is gonna split open with every breath, throat feels like its constantly bleeding. sucks too because i also currently dont have a doctor either, how nice.

im glad there really hasn't been any other drama in my life lately, which honestly is probably why i have nothing really to write or update about LOL. at least things and myself have been good though, thats always a nice thing. though there are times where im  having these thoughts about a lot of things. im unsure if their just intrusive because some of them dont bother me when i think about them, as for the others, i know that im thinking about them because i want to. mainly relationship things and other things on my mind, though i try to avoid them as much as possible. i stress myself out way too much.