A letter to you part 2

I got a diagnosis today... I not only have ADHD but also chronic depression and anxiety. I wish with all my being that I knew this before hand. I didn't hate you. I loved you so deeply, I wanted to do all those things with you but I couldn't get out of bed. I will forever regret giving up so much time with you. How do I earn back your love? I'm so lost without you. I'm fighting my depression and I wish you could see it... I think you'd be proud. I'm cleaning and trying to take care of myself. It's so fucking hard but I know you would've wanted me to do this...... I wish you would come home.....