my biggest fear

i am always so scared when someone says they want to talk to me. when someone says that they have a crush on me. i know they're going to leave soon after when i dont return their feelings. i know nothing will ever be the same again after that original confession. it terrifies me to know ive been in servers where someone has been talking about the fact they have a crush on someone and ive responded- oblivious- encouraging them to tell them because they might return the crush. and now when someone gets too nice, tells me im pretty or im kind i want to run away because i know what could happen