To feel is to be alive

Feelings are a gift, to feel something is to be alive. Feeling everything is a curse. I can feel every emotion, every pain, every bit of affection, everything at once. It’s uncomfortable, my skin doesn’t feel right on my body, my hair is too heavy, my eyes won’t stop crying. I don’t want to feel everything, but to feel nothing is a waste. It hurts, it all hurts and I don’t know when it stops. I don’t know if it’ll ever stop and I don’t know if that’s a good thing. I feel too deeply, but these emotions don’t feel like mine. I can’t keep them all inside, but where can I put them?