A pathetic vent lol

This is kinda personal vent but oh well

Whoop whoop, I'm struggling in life at the moment :D 

I have to give in my school inscription papers by the 23rd of may but i don't want to continue in this school cause of the people and shit drama happening

Everyone in my class has given theirs in cause they're coming back to this school next year. But I don't want to continue here. I don't want to do anything tbh. I hate school, i hate being different, i hate having to follow a schedule that doesn't change ever or having to stay in one area. I want to live, be free, do what makes me happy, go to raves, meet my online friends, i have no friends irl, i hate this so much. 

The only things keeping me alive are music and my online gf. I hope to meet her soon but my parents don't want me to meet someone i met online, even though we planned on going to a punk concert, so my parents know there'll be people around, even though I know it's not dangerous to meet her, but they seem to think she's not real.

I even have to get an apprenticeship for may but i don't want to continue a career in french fucking cuisine, it's fancy and absolute shit. I want to be a musician but I'm not good enough. 

I'm in a punk band with my gf, but first we have to try get her better, she doing terribly because she's trans and struggling mentally because her parents don't accept her, nor do they accept her punk style, and all that...