5.5.23

Tw mentions/implications of self harm

Today was tiring. I realise how im quite active in drawing at school compared to at home. I barely draw at home. The minster of education announced that therell be no outdoor activities (yay) but we still had to do our cocurricilar (cocum/kokum here) activities indoors °՞(ᗒᗣᗕ)՞°

  I decided to join cheerleading cuz everyone had to participate in an activity for the sports day which was postponed due to the heat wave. Every other acitvity was boring so thats why i decided to join cheerleading, also to get to know the new girl cus shes joining too, and bc we were told its necessary to join an acvitity. I didnt like th eother activities so i went with cheerleading. We were told to go to the music room for cheerleading practice. I and a teacher were the first ones to go cuz everyone else was slow asf. When we reached there, she started asking me to see my arm n i immediately assumed she knew. Seems like its big news among teachers now (ಥ_ʖಥ)

  The cheerleading practice on the other hand, was boring asf. It was just a discussion abt our appearance n shit, no choreography...yet. They allowed makeup n i think ik how to do that. I actually would love to do that. Ive never gone out with makeup before (due to anxiety). I think this is my time to shine abt how cute i am!! ᕙ( •̀ ᗜ •́ )ᕗ i just wanna be different thats all (*꒦ິ꒳꒦ີ)

  also i gave up trying to talk to the new girl, smth abt her was bugging me sm. She was constantly catching glimpse of me/staring at me. N seemed like shes annoyed with me everytime i got close or looked at her. Shes probably heard of some things abt me from Kenny cus they talk quite a lot. Thought would be fun to talk to her, i heard that she likes drawing :/