I feel small sometimes

It's not always in a bad, way but never in a good way either. it's kind of neutral the way?

I feel almost invisible but still have a bunch of influence in some sort of way... it's a bizarre feeling but I kind of like it. 

I also kind of feel like I don't want too small, but I don't want to go to be the size of a giant. I want to be normal sized but still be able to shrink and disappear.