All i want

i cant wait to get my dream life, it'll be so peacefully crazy.  Dream house, dream friends, dream dude, dream closet, dream self, dream car, dream career. I love sleeping so i can dream about it and be on cloud 9 for a few hours. I love listening to music and looking outside my wind staring off into a beautiful blue and sunny sky or a pretty sunset just dreaming and thinking about all i want. I'm very much a daydreamer and sometimes loose reality,its like i live in 2 different worlds, its actually really sick and messed up because every time i'm pulled back to reality its like being crushed by a glittery rock; its nice but hurts bad. It must be why i complain so much, i'm stuck in a unrealistic fantasy 24/7,sometimes i worry that all i want is to much and ill never get it, but i'm way to deep into my world to believe that honestly. I know i'm not the only one who feels likes this, there most def other "delusional" people or fantasy day dreamers as i call it.You know i love the 2000's, but sometimes i think its deeper than that. Like an eternal jealousy for those who lived in that time, and a longing to have been born in 1990. I get physical and mental pain from watching things from the 2000's, its actually pretty pathetic. I really should get over myself but in some twisted way i like the feeling of pain from missing something i never experienced. I often wonder "if i was born then, would i have enjoyed it and lived in the moment, or would i long to be born decades earlier like now. I should get a hold of myself before i turn 18, or else the dream might be my downfall. Honestly when as i write this i sound lame or crazy but i know some of ya'll understand.