May 3 2023 School

Most of today left me feeling really anxious and shaky. I hate it here. I feel sick.

Orchestra

We practiced on the stage for the concert again. Our soloist sounds really good. I have a little hope. I squeaked a little when I was playing the violin and it was embarrassing. Thankfully I don't think anyone heard. No one really pays attention to me, even though I'm the leader of the second violins.

Math

We started a unit on geometry. I hate geometry. I shared earbuds with my friend and we listened to TVGirl together. It was nice. I still need to do my math homework.

PE

I missed PE since I was at my orchestra recital. We did ok, I think. Hopefully it goes just as well tomorrow night. 

History

Today was our test on financing. I got 100%. My friend did too. We shared earbuds again. We listened to breakcore. Even though girls in the row behind me were talking behind my back again, I think the class was ok.

Science

I cried most of science. Our teacher spent the first 15 minutes of class just yelling at us. I hate when people yell at me. I hate when adults are mad at me. He gave us a summative assignment that none of the classes had to do.

Lunch

I didn't eat anything. The pick me girls were following us again. There was a whole drama that I won't get in to with a girl who I'll call R. Lunch left me anxious too.

English

We're still working on our acting unit. We had to find partners and practice acts by William Shakespeare. The boy who has a crush on me's cousin tried to set me up with him. I avoided it. This class made me anxious too. I think my English teacher noticed. When I left the classroom she said that I did well. I don't know how to feel about that. 

I might not be able to log tomorrow since I'm going to be so busy. I hope that I'll get the chance to. I don't want to go back to school. I'm sick of getting bullied. I'm sick of it all.