Surviving

"> Ever since my grandma died, I feel like I've been surviving instead of living. To make matters worse, On Saturday, it will be the 12 years since my step-dad passed away and next Tuesday would have been his 57th birthday. I just feel so lost some days. Hanging out with my boyfriend does help. I don't want to just survive. I want to live life to the fullest. My anxiety has been bad since my grandma passed and so some days it's even hard to just survive.