misc. update

so it's been a whole THREE WEEKSSSS since the last update here and i'm not too sure what to write about here but i wanna write something so i guess we'll just see how this shit goes :P only interesting thing i can think about rn is mental health ig?? and like idk. i just havent been doing  particularly great atm. been pissed off bc ive just been surrounded by brazen, abrasive ppl lmao and its just hhghghhnnm. u feel. i would also like to apologise for the (honestly usual at this point) dubious grammar, i am very tired (also as per usual)

im sooooo tired atm and i got so much going onnnn bruh. on top of that im still getting over my ex (it was a rough break up even tho it was a while ago from now) IT IS MAKING ME SAD RANDOMLY WTF Dx that whole ordeal kind just set me on a big ol spiral and im hrnnngg.. i miss her so muchhh but i know we'll never be the same again and its like. not only were they my best friend for five years, but also my first kiss and first relationship (lasting 7 months) just eeeeehggh

//// i won't get too deep into it but TW for sh and ed starts here, putting it at the end so its easier to skip

so for a looonnngggg time now at this point ive had a bit of a problem with the two and ive been getting worse lately tbh but im tryna get better u know, anyway bumming me the hell out bc both are stressful as hell (and obviously cause by other issues in the first place). ALSO been annoyed bc ive had to be around ppl eating way more than usual and i cant eat like a normal amount even if i push all the s t u f f to the back of my mind somehow, bc it hurts my stomach :< also i think ppl are starting to notice my sh now (even tho i try to hide it) and its just like making me rly anxious, its making me feel rly guilty too

//// safe now, tw over

ANYWAY overall MID time recently

ty 4 reading if u did >_< love u human