:/

not that anyone is gonna care all too much but i just need to vent, and none of my friends are listening. i have been really deep in depression again lately and have been extremely yknow what. i literally told one of my closest friends and she went “lmao me too” and continued talking about some fucking guy at work she likes. which is the only thing she ever talks about. i love my friends and they all have good intentions, i just think they don’t understand how fucked in the head i can get. my parents’ solution is either hospitalization or “talk to your doctors”. i do do those things, but hey, maybe i might just need some casual support and not that bullshit all the time? maybe i just need to hear from a close friend “i love you” and stuff??? like come on. anyway. i just want to be taken seriously. i play most things off as a joke and force myself to be overly loud and talkative around my friends purely because i don’t want to be in my normal headspace around them. but the consequences of that apparently are me never being taken seriously when i am blatantly telling them i want to y’know what. fuck this.