romance... the enigma of my life

it has been a year that i've discovered that i am in fact, aromantic. i desire emotional intimacy, i want it so bad dawg, but i just don't feel it. have never felt it. i always forced myself to, but i just couldn't yk? don't think i ever will. when i think about ACTUALLY havin a relationship, i get so disgusted. in the future, should i just pretend to love people so i can fit in? so i can find a rich husband? who knows