April curse

April has been the worst month of the year for the last 6 years. Something always happens in the early days or shortly before, and then I lose my way and can't recover until next year. What happened this year is Ada no longer wants me to cvt myself for her and now has a girlfriend. It happened a while ago, but I feel worse about it now. It has not been as bad as most Aprils. The problem is just that I went from doing things to suddenly doing nothing. I think I can still bounce back.