[4/30/23] i slept in my shed last night

No song today

If there was one i forgot it

I slept in my shed and it was rly nice. I felt safe and like my environment was clean and for me

I wanna sleep in there more often, the only problem was that my couch is a bit too small and when it rained it was really loud

Im so hungry i am trying to pass time till i can eat

I finally got a non stimulant adhd med i hope it works. I havent really noticed a change but it said it could take up to 4 weeks to notice one.

Ivent been able to do much of anything , and i quit my job because i couldnt handle her anymore. I feel bad honestly but idk. Idk what to do.

I have been trying to get back into making stuff and art shit , i noticed recently that being on call helps me so much with being productive. I kinda always knew that but no one ever was on call w me so i never really got a chance to really notice

But i learnt from a friend that its called body doubling when that helps you so significantly. Its an autism and adhd thing apparently and yea checks out further to make me sure i have adhd and autism lmfao

My very autistic friend told me "thats the most autistic shit ive ever heard" after i told him something gjsjjgks apparently i mask too. Head in hands. I need to get diagnosed ajjfjsjf

I need to get my computer fixed so bad i hope its salvageable.

I made a little ... Bowl plate thing using a leaf yesterday , i hope its dry now. I saw someone on Pinterest do it 🥺 i also made a mushroom out of wood its not the best though. Its all for me so i dont need quality but i hope i get better at stuff eventually. Id like to sell stuff and share .

I am mid grind on a doodoo pigment , i never was able to try and get dye or pigment out of the dock. Its just sitting there 🫠i feel like i got so much i want / need to do i am overwhelmed. I wish i had a friend to do stuff with art wise

Im happy i have friends to play games with 🥺 i got a lot of my friends to play mc together!!!! It makes me so happy they like playing . I need to join them ive been all over the place crazy.

Its so weird i think ive been in a better mood recently but I'm still useless. I feel like ive had a meltdown recently tho. Like on friday oops yea i went nuts oh well. Maybe not then idk.

Kind of annoyed i think my psychiatrist mentioned i used to drink a lot to the peer support lady bc she tacked on "i also deal w recovery, no shame" or smtn at the end of her voice mail ... Ummmmm hippa who.

 And i lost my fuckin binder AUGH