Blegghhhh... (VENUS' BIGGEST SECRET?!, exam worries, moon knight, and more...)

I'm so emotionally EXHAUSTED!!! But not in a good way this time. I've just been tired man. I have  both my AP exams on Friday and I'm not having a good time cramming for both of them. I barely have anything I like for my ap2d portfolio, which is entirely my fault me thinks, but for AP us history, we just have a teacher who's bad at teaching. I love her to death she's such a great person and I get WHY she teaches us like this, but god damn everyone I know who has her for this class is sure they're gonna fail the exam. She's holding a mock exam later this morning at like 8, but I can't go cuz 1) I don't have transportation 2) I have ap2d pieces that are more important to me and 3) someone literally got stabbed 6 times on campus less than 24 hours ago, and I'm PETRIFIED of that. I'm so upset too, we're super behind on the unit we're supposed to be on, which means WE HAD TO BLOW THROUGH MY FAVORITE TIME PERIOD :((( Like my fav period in us history is the 60s-80s, think like, beginning of the Vietnam war to Reagans presidency, and we spent TWO DAYS on it. Do you know how much that hurts when in September I was having to analyze the fucking mayflower compact for the same amount of time. I'm lucky cuz I can easily bullshit an essay about anything past WWII, and maybe pre colonization and revolutionary war but other than that I'm actually so fucked. 

Anywho on a cheerier note, I recently got into moon knight!! I bought volumes 1 + 2 of the 2021 run at a comic shop we went to on a trip, and I kinda fell in love with the character ngl. I read what else was out immediately after, and was immediately disappointed. I don't talk about it often, but I'm a syshost, I'm not formally diagnosed, but I've been tracking it for almost two and a half years now, and I'm pretty confident in my abilities to cross reference papers + such! In the 2021 run of moon knight, Marc regaining contact with his headmates and having them able to switch on command immediately is framed as an immediate thing, even though its stated they haven't been in contact for a long time. In my personal experience, I phase in and out of proper contact with my brain oomfies often, and besides one, it takes a hell of a lot to regain that contact, especially as someone who is at front like 95% of the time. It's just not super realistic to me. 

NOW 2016 MOON KNIGHT ON THE OTHER HAND... 

I love 2016 moon knight to death, I suggest everyone ever should read it, ESPCIALLY systems. Legitimately, this comic captured the experience of being in a system better than any piece of did media I've ever consumed (this is from my personal experience ofc lolz) I am going to be so fr rn it parallels the experiences I(?) had coming to terms with being a system almost to a tee, it was almost scary. The initial 2016 run is SUPER short, its only about 14 issues, it took me under an hour to read, but man I wish there was more. Like the story wraps up in the perfect little bow (a bow that made me cry ngl) but MAAAANNNNN I love marc, jake, steven and the astronaut (sorry lil man I forgot ur name) ALSO. SPEAKING OF THE ASTRONAUT, he's a fucking fragment, to this day 2016 moon knight is the only piece of sys media I've consumed that explicitly mentions fragments as a concept, astronaut guy is one. Anywho reading 2016 moon knight made me try n reconnect with the rest of my sys because, guess who lost contact again... erm.