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I hate my body so much ugh. My friends are the only reason i'm still alive rn. I've been feeling so dysphoric and i hate it. I hate it, i hate it, i hate it. My parents are homo/trans phobic and I feel like i can't tell them anything anymore. I'm so angry and sad and i despise it. I feel like a poor sole trapped in a rotting corpse of a body. My parents took away one of my blades. I've been drawing blood lately. Little beads of red on my wrists, thighs, and stomach. I hate my body so much. I hate being trans. My friends use my old name, and they use the wrong pronouns. I don't know what to do...
I've been talking to my therapist about it but there's really nothing to stop it.
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☆sage☆
i honestly dont know what to say to things like this, bu t im sorry. And ill always be here for you, you can talk to me anytime and ill listen. About anything, i wont judge you or anything. But im sorry, and i love you. Never forget that.<33
Megan
I am so so so sorry you're dealing with this and have found SH as a coping mechanism. Full disclosure, I'm almost 30 and my thighs are riddled with scars. They are a constant reminder of how much I used to hate myself. Some days I cover them, some days I display them openly because fuck it, no one can say anything to me that can hurt me worse than I've hurt myself. As someone who's big on harm reduction, please try using a rubber band around the wrist and snapping it whenever you feel an urge to hurt yourself. Regardless of what you think of yourself, you deserve gentleness.
And please remember, you are so much more than your body. Even though you may not feel it now, and you are suffering with what seems like an impossible burden, I know you are light and vibrancy and so full of potential in this life. Trans is beautiful, and that includes you!!
You will not always feel this low, I promise you.
Thank you so, so much. This really helps. 3
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Anna☆
dude you are not the only one who doesn't tlike their own body,I hate my body since 5th grade cuz I got bodyshamed a lot,and i still got bodyshamed by my classmates,they are always saying things like''You are too skinny/you have no curves/you are just like a plank''
But my classmates are looking goofy ugly ass bitches.
I mean i still hate my body,so uh you are not the only one alr?
Like for me i doesn't really matter how other people look like,i was always thinking that everyone is pretty,except for me I'm the ugliest like hall nahh,but i think you are pretty to
i like everyone,but if you hate being trans then you should think about this,I mean if everyone loves you for who you are especially your friends,then you should think positive,I don't have friends at school,but if you're friends don't wanna use your current name and pronouns then maybe they are homophobic or something? idk
by Anna☆; ; Report
You are the nicest person I've ever talked too. thank you so,so,so much! This really helps me and i hope you find some friends at your school who love you and your body and support you when you're feeling down. You have no idea how much this means to me. Thank you so much.
by ✯Drew✯; ; Report