28.4.23

had my 6th counselling session today. My mom lied about it being my last lol.

Todays session was bad. I cried. Unfortunately cant say much about it. He told me he saw a bit of improvement in me so thats why i still needed some counselling. I dont feel like my situation fits counselling at all n i kinda dont feel comfortable with a male counselor. Ive been meaning to talk abt this to my mom but idk how to say it. I kinda feel bad too. i feel my situation is much more severe. 

these past few weeks ive been feeling depressed as shit. theres nothing to do. i dont have any comforts atm so im sticking with my obsession with richey edwards as my "comfort" outlet. ik its wrong to use a real person as comfort, what i meant is that i dont have anything to "cling" to. i have a lot of things in mind but i dont feel like acting on it.