love me (hate me) fuck me (fuck off)

i'm writing this instead of texting her. i've texted her three times and she hasn't answered.

die maus kann schlafen. das is gut. ich kann nicht. 

(i tell myself that, anyway.)

take me anywhere but here, love. take me where the stars shine away from highway lights, where the night is warm and the cicadas shriek with terror at what i become when i think of you.

(should i text her again?)

she's a disease, slowly taking me over and turning me into one of them- one of her cute toys. she has a collection of dolls and i'm a funko pop.

(what does my brother have that i don't?)

(please pick up the phone.)

your closet looks nice this time of year. 

(i can't hold on much longer.)