Life update

Well its been over a year since I wrote on here. Mainly because I slowly forgot about it. But a lot has happened. The biggest thing is that I'm 19 now. So scary imma be 20 in November. @0 is such an adult number. One I don't think I'm ready for. Another thing is that I've gotten out of a two year relationship. I met him when I was 16 I'm about to be 20. So much of my life revolved around a single person for the longest time of my life. And now I have no one to revolve around. I think getting used to change is what is most scary of unfamiliar. I was so used to having him by my side. That now its almost unreal to not even be able to call him at night like we always would. But I don't think change is bad. Change helps you become the person you are. And change helps you find who You are. Not with other peoples opinions but who you as a person on your own really are. Ive drifted from art a lot. But slowly getting back to the groove of it. At sometimes its really annoying. Mainly cause I'm a perfectionist. But I've also have come to enjoy the side of me. I see the change that might not be noticeable to other people. But I know I see the difference. And it makes be feel really proud of the work I've done. One thing I haven't stopped doing is finding new music. In reality I think my taste hasn't really changed. But more or less expanded. I might do a whole playlist list on here idk ill think about it. but I'm excited to see how the future goes. Im so excited for this new chapter of my life. Im so ready for the world.