Society honestly is horrible

I aint gonna lie, I feel really uncomfortable writing my blog right now because theres people behind me that can see my computer screen. But I overall, just want to discuss how it is normalized, even romanticized to bully and or be a jerk to people.

I know I'm not any better than most people but it's good to at least recognize that you are treating people not the best you should be than to nver at all.

I, myself, am really quick to judge. Some person's weraring something really weird in the hallway? "Ew tf." But then I try to think to myself of what they are thinking. Maybe it's a shirt they've been saving up to buy or maybe it's a gift from a beloved family member. Maybe they're really passionate about what's on that shirt. Like, we shouldn't be so quick to judge everybody.

LIke right now. The girls behind me are laughing at some guy's post. It could've been something he was really happy or proud about. Like, how would he feel if he heard what those girls were saying about him right now?

And like a little bit ago, I was scrolling through SpaceHey and I saw a post about Terraria. A game I've played literally all of my life. I have some very fond memories playing that game in elementary school with my cousins on sleepovers or practically any time we could. It's a game very dear to my heart. So, I was looking at this post about a tip and one of the girls was saying sum like "That kid is rly looking at a Terraria post?" And like sure, I can understand their standpoint, but like, they don't really need to judge so harshly just because of 1 game that I like.

But I try to be more understanding of people and look at it from their standpoint, but yes, I'm not perfect, and I still do judge people. 

And I'm probably trying to rationalize my way of thinking, but there are some cases where it is not really okay to share something. LIke an example of this is in 8th grade. There was this girl that really liked me. And sure, at first I was fine withe her hanging out with me and my other friend but it spiraled. She would send me Gatcha edits of the two of us and pass me notes every single day, as well as giving me gifts that I didn't want, and giving me hugs that I didn't want.

Yes, I can understand that she was really passionate about... me I guess... and that making edits was something she enjoyed, but it got to the point where it wasn't okay. She was sharing feelings with me that made me very uncomfortable, and it got to the point where my other friend was extremely uncomfortable around her. So I cut her off. Yess I did it extremely harshly, and looking back now I could've handled the situation better, but it was necessary. And I caught myself finding some of the edits she made saved to my phone because I thought they were funny. And yes, I still think they're funny, but I have to realize that she was trying to express very intense emotions. And I shouldn't be trying to make fun of her for that.

But anyway, I just want to try and become better. And not judge people to harshly. And I feel really bad right now, knowing that I still do it. But I just kind of hate that aspe

ct of myself. That I judge everybody yet I feel bad for it. I say that I should'nt keep doing it, yet I still do.

(Sorry if there's extreme typos in here, I've been typing all of this with the font on white so the girls behind me cant read it... and judge me...)