Moon's Starlights

Week One - The start of an era

Hello, my starlights!! ☆☆

So basically Hi, welcome to my blog. This where I talk about my life in general and what's going on! Do keep in mind if I talk about other people, no personal names will be disclosed so I will give everyone a code name or if it's family, I'll just name what they are in the family.

ANYWAY! Let's talk about yesterday. So yesterday, I had a blood test since I've been a bit drained and too tired to do anything so my mum made me get it done, but before I was even ready (I was ready so many hours before I had to leave anyway), my mum and brother came home early and I was so confused since they weren't meant to be home until 3pm-ish.

I asked my brother 'what happened?' and he just acted smug and said he got into a fight with someone at school. I just said okay and continued doing my makeup but after a while my mum came in and I kept asking her what happened (She couldn't hear me) and once she heard me, she sat down and explained my brother's mates was trying to get him to fight someone by saying this one boy was talking shit about him. This then got my brother to aggressively look around the playground until he found the boy and then go on to fight him.

Since my mum is a staff member she was able to watch the CCTV of what happened and even though she saw what happened, my brother continued to lie about the boy attacking him first.

So yeah that happened and on the first day back at school like wtf- But yeah I had a blood test around 4:40pm so since my mum was home early, she put numbing cream on the inner bit of my arm, yk where it bends lol, and I had it on for OVER TWO HOURS! It felt so weird and I hated it. Once we got there, I low key had to go toilet since I was making sure to drink a lot of water. After a few minutes, I was called into the blood clinic, this is where the panicking and crying starts, the doctor was touching my arms to find a vein but since I had numbing cream on (and I have Autism), I freaked out when he touched me bc of the weird feeling which grossed me out.

Once he found one, he put this rubber band around my arm and I FREAKED OUT! I was so scared to the point I cried my makeup off and my mum was about to give up. She tried to help me feel better by saying what I want after it, I said I want McDonald's and something sweet since I felt light-headed, she was surprised I wanted something small so I just said to her that would she rather me ask for a whole new pc, which obviously we wouldn't be to afford. Eventually, I was able to let the doctor do it but since I was shaking so much from anxiety, he couldn't find a vein... SO HE HAD TO DO THE OTHER ARM BRUH

That was my nightmare because I wanted it over and done with, my mum passed me a pillow and I tried to stay as still as I could even though it was horrendously painful, BUT WE GOT IT DONE FINALLY

He was finally able to get my blood and I was so lightheaded I alost fainted and I still couldn't stop crying. My mum wiped up my face and we went home and had Fajitas since I didn't have much food left in my freezer (Context: I do my own food shop with my benefit money) but later on my mum realised how red the place I had the numbing cream, TURNS OUT IM ALLERGIC TO IT??? WTF -

Oh also I had a bath once we got home since I was sweating from anxiety TuT but it burnt my arms and I couldn't properly wash myself 

Anyway, that was my day yesterday, it wasn't much but GOD was it traumatising. But I'll see you guys next week!!! 

BYEEEE STARLIGHTSSSS ☆☆