more poetry. hope you enjoy !!
sometimes, when i'm in bed at night
when the cicadas are chirping incessantly, desperate to be heard
and when the moonlight filters through the broken blinds of the window
i think about what the people at home are saying about me
i wonder if they've finally decided that i'm dead yet,
forgotten about me completely
or if a solemn few are still holding out hope that i'm wandering around in the woods of michigan somewhere
a little girl who's lost her way
"she'll come home soon," they'll say, as their eyes glance back and forth from the clock to the calendar,
"it's only a stunt. girls like that only do it for attention. you remember the mailman Jones's girl? she was only gone for a week. didn't even go far, anyway."
i think it's the latter though,
since i don't think many people liked me very much
nobody at school will be talking about my disappearance
because they don't even know i existed
only the 50 something year olds of the town will notice
murmuring over the daily newspaper and cups of coffee going cold
"i always knew that girl was trouble," one of the older ladies will say to her friends at their weekly bridge game,
"it was only a matter of time. i saw the devil in her, you know."
i wonder if my parents have completely gotten rid of the memory of me
thrown out all of my baby pictures
cut my figure out of all the christmas cards that i never smiled in
cleaned out my room and turned it into an office or a guest room that will be locked from the inside
they won't even have a grave made for me
because they never had a daughter in the first place
"what was that, Mrs. Palmer? our daughter? I'm sorry, you must be mistaken. we were never able to have children. you must be having one of your fits again. let's see about Mr. Palmer taking you home, alright?"
there will be no pictures of me in the newspaper
no reward for finding me
because the preacher's wife was barren
and why would you care to find someone
who never even existed?
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VRUNKYZ_COMBAT
THIS IS SO GOOD OMĢ
OMG THANK U SO MUCH !!!! <33
by katherine ˖ ࣪⭑; ; Report
gridbug
This is amazing stuff! I like the narrative and the variation in the line lengths, it gives the whole thing a nice sense of momentum. Have you ever thought about putting together a chapbook of your poems?
AHH im so glad you enjoy !!! and ive never thought of making a chapbook but that's honestly such a fun idea... ive always really enjoyed reading little stuff like that so id love to try my hand at making one some day. thank you for the inspiration !!!! ill see what i can do :-)
by katherine ˖ ࣪⭑; ; Report
finnfuckingtastic
AMAZING!!!!!!!
THANK YOU FIN !!!!!!! (/・ω・(-ω-)
by katherine ˖ ࣪⭑; ; Report