AITA for selling my baby to buy Belle Delphine's bath water?

This all started back in 2019 when Belle Delphine, an internet celebrity, initially sold her bath water to fans for $30 a jar. I was always fascinated by the idea, but I missed my chance to buy it at the time. Over the years, my fascination grew into an obsession. I scoured the internet for authentic Belle Delphine bath water, and in 2022, I finally found it. An auction was being held for a jar of her bath water, DNA-tested and verified to be authentic. The bidding was fierce, and I ended up spending $12,500 on it. Now, I know that's a lot of money, but I couldn't help it. I was in a dark place in my life. I had lost my job, my relationship was falling apart, and everything felt meaningless. I needed something to cling to, something to make me feel alive again, and for me, that was the bath water. I didn't have the money to spend, but I had a beautiful baby girl, only 6 months old. I thought about it long and hard, and I couldn't shake the feeling that this was my chance at happiness. Then, one day, as if by a sign, a pigeon landed on my windowsill and dropped a note. The note read, "In the pursuit of happiness, you must follow your heart." That's when I knew I had to do it. With a heavy heart, I found a couple who was unable to have children and was looking to adopt. I sold my baby to them for the exact amount I needed for the bath water. I thought that if I had Belle's bath water, I'd be able to turn my life around and find happiness again. And maybe, just maybe, I could earn enough money to get my baby back someday. It's been a few months since I bought the bath water, and my life hasn't really improved. The sadness of losing my baby haunts me every day. I cry myself to sleep thinking about her, wondering if I made the right choice. My friends and family have disowned me, calling me a monster for what I did. I thought that by following my heart, I would find happiness, but all I found was sorrow and loneliness. I understand that this is a heavy and controversial topic, but I need an unbiased opinion. So, SpaceHey, AITA for selling my baby to buy Belle Delphine's bath water?