Today did not go well.

I really don't want to make an overly-depressing post, so I'll just keep things brief... I showed up on time to my school today. I was really excited to fly in a Piper for the first time. The issue was... The forecast was wrong. It was extremely hot today. 

Everyone was commenting on the hot weather. I tried to tough it out, but in the end, I really just couldn't. After the pre-flight check, I sat in the plane and started feeling really dizzy from the heat. I just had to call it off. My instructor didn't mind at all, of course, since health is extremely important in aviation. 

Once I got back into the school to cool off, I called my mom to let her know that I was coming home early. Um, it's no secret that my mom is very... Mean. She can be very cruel to me, and my best is just never good enough for her. She saw my honesty and looking out for myself, as a disappointment. Because to her, I am not allowed to have limits. 

She kinda started berating me over the phone, which was upsetting. I rescheduled my flight for Tuesday morning, and headed to the car.. I ended up just kind of having a bit of a breakdown and was sobbing in my car because I felt like a failure. Not because I believe I am one, but because my mom sees me as one no matter how hard I try. 

She had also told me something else that I really don't want to talk about, but it hurt me on a pretty deep level. I really just wasn't sure why she was telling me something like that, if she was just taunting me or what. 

Anyways, I got home and about an hour later, a friend came over. I hadn't seen him in a while so it was good to talk again. My mom was getting on my nerves and making the two of us uncomfortable with her, uh, "opinions" on things. It just got very chaotic for a moment before she finally left the house. 

I'm still feeling pretty upset about things, even though I did nothing wrong. I know I would have passed out from the heat, so I was just doing what I learned in school - being open and honest and respecting my own personal limits. 

Anyways, I'm going to help my dad with some yard work. That should help me feel better. 

Ah.... And she just got home and is already causing problems. I'm going to just start helping my dad now.