im a loner dottie a REBEL

i have alllll of my overdue work completed :) this semester started out really really rough and ive been skipping gym a LOT because every time we have a Game Unit i am the worst perosn there and allll my friends leave me to be in a gorup of people who i dont like and i Lways end up crying but its ok because its over :)) classroom unit startung tomorrow hopefully i wont fail :))) im doing better than i though (picture of me and my friends if our school was bigger and nicer and more fun to skip classes in) 

i reeally really wish my friends were into things i am but i understand why they arernt its really not for everyone its ok. i dont hate them i just think it would be nice if i had friends who were more like me you knoww. the only people who toleratre me are queer theater kidds and their interests are generally in the General area of things like. musicals. and The Owl house. and harry potter ? and dnd ? whihc are all things i dont really like ery much at all. BUT its ok i love them i think theyre great most of the time :))0000 i dont expect to find DECAYDANCE fans in Real life unless i turn them into dcd fsans but thats very hard because theyvare very outdated and unconventional no offense. IDEK how i got into it. #Caantstopurhusbandfrombuildingatraininthebackyard

i realizedf how good journaling stupid things like this are for me. i ahve little to no record of my life beforr like 2020 outsaide of possessions and artworks that ive made. but with journals i can see what i was actually like and what i was into and how i spoke and how i felt etc etc. Hello future me if this webstie still exists :)))))))))))))))))))))))) im doing ok

im shaking like crazy because inust finished a rockstar (rockstar fruit punch zero >>>>>>> pipeline punch sorry 2020 alttitktok)i usually dont type ths bad sorry But idc aboutt hat rn. i think it adds character. even if spome people think its annoying idc its for me  SOrry. my finger kinda sore. EVERY TEENAGER TODAY IS GOING TO HAVE CARPAL TUNNEL IN 30 YEARS! my mom forgot to tell me my sister isnt at school today so i was waiting and waiting and she was like OH NO im sorry i forgot to tell u. ill buy you sushi to mae up for it. so my DINNER TONIGH IS sushi and a rockstar and tats like my dream meal. mmmmmmmmm. spicy teryaki something i forgot. oops.

some of my friendships are kinda going under. not in a bad dramatic way we are just kind of fading aparr yk. especially me nd my best friend who i talk to like once a week now. Technicallyt not bsf anytmore because of that but its not like i have a NEW one sooooo.who cares. i hope he doesnt resent me for it or feels like itds his fault it just happens. he was great to have aroud. things change and that is OK. he s clearly moving on well and im glad. i hope he still thinks aiout me sometimes or whatever. the beginning of the end was in january i think and it was the stupidest fuckig reason ever +++ then he got a boyfdriend and it was all he ever talked about so i stopped responding to him ,most of the time because hearing him talk about his newq SOULMATE BET FRIENFD FOREWVER BPOYFRIEND LOVCER every single fuckingg message he sends it kind of gets old and kind of makes me feel like Pppppphhhhhhhhllllpp. i hope he doesnt think i hat ehis BF and i hope his BF doesnt think i hate him bc i dont he seems very cool i just dont want to hear my Best Friend constantly talk about someone else he likes better than me all the time :( and im sure his bf can understand that :(9 ive been thinking about it a lot. i hope they are both ok. i wan to move on but i cantr its hard. i will eventually its ust kinda hard to finally confront or cut contact (which i dont rlly want to do but thats like the onlu way ill get over it. IUGH,.)

Sorrry ab0out that i had ti get it out IM OK!!!1 Im doing really lly well v:)

i got my buddy LYKAN (who is on here! hi) into car seat headrest the other day and i am sooooooo happy bc i knew they would like them an di love them sooo much fav band OAT. none of my other Pals listen to me but i PROVED THEM QEONG!!!!!!!! they are so good. anywayssss

i don understand why people are so mean to teachers  :( unless they are mean bu i mean irrationally. i have never hated a teacher ive had. ive never had a ad teachr. they just want you to do well :) they are trying their hardesr to get you to pass and not everyone is great at it but you dont need to be like ohhhh ms Smith UGHHH i HATE her shes TERRIBLE. all  my friends rlly hate my science teacher from lasr semester nbecause they thinl she had a bad teaching style which i understand but she is seriouslt the sweetest funniest teacdher i have ever had AND im not a teachers pet or anything i definitel got in trouble with her a couple times. rightfully. but all my friends are so mean to her i dont get it :( stop being an ass to her personallt u can say you didnt like her style but like... :(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((9

GRAH. psoitive note. i got a free shirt @ school thrift event todayits rlly cool. ok bye

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