Rant about my (now) ex boyfriend

Hey guys!

I thought I´d give y'all an update cuy it´been a while.

Exactly one week ago I broke up with my boyfriend which was uneventful but I had no other choice. He was an ok boyfriend, don´t get me wrong. Obviously there r always things u can do better but that´t not the point. I'm in such a bad mental state that I simply can't care about others or help them cuz I  don't even know how to help myself. Being in a relationship just became stressfull at some point. So I went along and told him about it and basically broke up. Even tho he always said he understands my problems, he doesn't. Not even a bit. I understand that he is mad, but I am too and I'm not letting it out on him. Rather than being nice and trying to understand my reasoning behind the breakup, he started mildly insulting me and putting words into my mouth. "Is it that u maybe wanna make out with girls again?" he said. Atp I'm not even sad about the breakup anymore, because how could someone I have loved an cared so much about think about me like this? He's just constantly saying how my reasonings are not making sense and so on. I wrote him literal paragraphs about why I broke up and how I felt. Isn't this enough? I don´t wanna spend my awful days trying to justify myself because (shocker) it makes me more miserable. Today I kinda snapped a little at him, because this sh!t has been going on for days and I'm so sick of it. He hasn't answered yet tho.

Anyways. I´m gonna get my eyebrows pierced later and I'm so excited! ^^ As some of y'all know I recently turned 18 so now I can get them pierced on my own. It's gonna be so interesting to go home with new piercings and see all the shocked faces.

How has ur days been? Hope y'all are not overwhelmed by this mess but I needed to rant somewhere because I only told one online friend about it so yeah.

Hope y'all r staying safe and healthy!

Love,

Jamie <3