blue

i feel horrible. its so funny i had everything i wanted to say in my head but here i am with writers block. I've had a horrible day. i had a final today and i didn't know it was my final. im scared about the grade i'll get. i keep telling myself you'll pass. i will pass. another plague in my mind is this girl i don't like and my ex boyfriend. i hate him. i would've had time to study if he didn't keep calling me. i want to blame my unpreparedness on him after everything he said and did to me. i cut myself again two days ago and i never do that. i hate the man i rent from- he is standing outside my front door just staring out into the world. retail therapy 101 is currently in session. roller blades and knee pads. i feel so empty i want to do something with my life.