its not a crush, idk what it is!

theres this girl in my class, you probably know where im going w this,

shes really pretty and ive always thought that about her. something happened during camping (a school thing), so i was having trouble sleeping and i asked if she could sleep next to me and she did and.. we sort of... cuddled?? idk but that wasnt anything abnormal for me! ive cuddled w my friends TONS of times but after i did it w her i started to think ab that moment alot. and its getting hard to talk to her because when i do i would just freeze on the spot, not knowing what to say and looking like a COMPLETE IDIOT!! i keep imagining us doing.. things.. like kissing and cuddling and all that i blush whenever shes near.

okay but heres the thing, i cant date girls. its not that i dont want to! its just that i live in a prettyy homophobic country and enviroment. im the type of person that wants to show off my s/o to everyone! i want to be proud of my s/o in public! but if its a girl, i cant do that without the both of us getting backlash.

i guess i should just get rid of the feelings right?