tough times/great times ?

so, a lot has happened in the last week.

i made a gimmick twitter account (@alienpostingg) where i basically just.. pretend to be an alien. and that got a surprising amount of love! like, in one week it has 19k followers. almost 20k. i've been receiving so much love, it's crazy.

but on the other hand, a bunch of bad shit has been happening IRL. i got doxxed online by students at my school because they fucking hate me. (like, my entire district has an entire hate campaign towards me. i have receipts and proof, its not something i'm making up.)

context for this next bit is that i have 2 moms. for clarity's sake i'll just say mom1 and mom2.

mom1 is, in short, abusive and ableist. me and mom2 are both disabled and can't stay with her much longer. mom2 luckily has a rich boyfriend who can house us, awesome! but the problem is that, due to a couple of factors, mom2 will be leaving to live with him this weekend, and i'll only be able to go in like 1-6 months. the house is a 2 hour drive away btw, so i can't easily see them. so i'll be fucking stuck in this house alone with mom1 for who knows how long. i don't know how transportation from school and such is gonna work. the only thing keeping me afloat these days is mom2. i can't handle this shit.

plus when i move i'll likely have to move to a new school/district, which is very bittersweet for me. on one hand, i'll have a fresh start and hopefully go to a district where not everyone is constantly doxxing, harassing, and taking photos of me like some fucking circus monkey. on the other hand, i'll be leaving behind my close friends. i won't get to see them everyday which will make us grow a bit distant i think. also, the autistic aversion to change is beating my ass right now. i don't know how much i can take it. i don't want to move to a new school but at the same time i do. i don't know.

- val