hard time

recently my boyfriend and i have been having such a hard time, our relationship feels so strained and everything is so hard and i feel like things are becoming hopeless, it feels like im just an inconvenience to him and any time i try to talk to him about it he just tells me that he thinks everything is fine and then nothing changes and its fine when were together because i think we both just ignore it but whenever were apart everything feels so hard and fake and forced and i just dont know what to do help