lovable but so unloved

pouring through old pictures/trying to remember the sound of your voice. waiting for you in dreams of a life lived too fast and loved too little. keep your distance, baby, and never let me get too close— id have ruined you, you think. 

call me your best friend but never say you love me. lovable but so unloved/you’ll find someone someday. 

waiting at the door for your scattered affections like a dog but you never came. finding remnants of you in everything left of me, let me go. 

remembering how you looked when you said goodbye to me in front of the museum/tainting the memory by knowing you’d never have gone if i wasn’t leaving. 

haunt my nights like the ghost of regret, let me go. 

too distant, too careful. YOU MADE ME LIKE THIS, i want to scream, DO I DESERVE THIS? but you don’t hear, and you never will. 

a going-away gift/a final request. LET ME GO.