Vent!!

I want to rip my fucking eyeballs rn... there's these horrible exes that have been harassing me for a while and I think they're back again, harassing one of my friends. I really don't want to deal with this anymore, I want to cry and scream and the fact that i don't feel like I'm on good terms with that friend at all really doesn't help. (We're really distant compared to a few months ago, he seems honestly mad when he talks to me and a bunch of other shit) and just with that I already feel so hopeless and like there's no future for me because he is my future. He's the reason im still alive and if he doesn't want me around anymore what's the point in living? And if those exes are back then that's just the cherry on top. I feel like kms.