Silly rant that is a bit concerning

I don't really have any character I simp for but apparently I have a recurring type with the few I do. Tall imposing morally evil witches who wouldn't give two shits for my life, the main one being Jadis, the white witch from the Narnia series(IDKWHY). I started to think then realized, it might be a religious trauma thing, and trauma thing. So now I feel silly, but also ♡Jadis, my beloved♡. But like, WHY DO I HAVE SUCH TRASH TASTE THO- SHE WOULDN'T GIVE TWO SHITS ABOUT ME-

I need to get better standerds than Tall scary morally evil witches.