BLEED | POEM / RAMBLE

cw: // self harm, heavy dissociation & dysphoria

you are made of wax 

your eyes of porcelain

& the body you inhabit isn't your own

you spend hours picking at your skin

& it gets you nowhere but bent over the sink

letting yourself bleed 

you speak to me 

and in an instant, 

i feel pressure beneath my teeth

you are a stain i can't erase 

& the only way i manage to scrub your taste off my tongue

is by biting holes into my cheek 

i see you in every fleeting shadow, 

the remnants of waking nightmares

in the pulse that's yet to slow down, 

the dread that remains thereafter 

i once believed sugar & honey would rid me of you 

and all that's left me is decay on enamel

how i'd love to carve out the rot of you,

if yanking you out of me weren't fatal,

i'd peel you out myself