ADHD Depression

I think the hardest part of my ADHD is the depression it causes. I get bored and I know everyone gets bored but its a different level when you have ADHD. Your body wants to do something so bad its overwhelming and the shitty part is that nothing satisfies that boredom. I could sit their and list all my favorite things I love to do but nothing scratches that boredom itch. This usually happens to me after I have a manic phase where I get obsessed with a new activity (it is currently jumping spiders). After I hyperfocus on this thing for like a week straight I will hit a wall where NOTHING is entertaining. Then my brain craves for some sort of stimulation so badly I start to cry because nothing fills that void. It honestly feels like I'm going fucking insane because I know if I just do something I will be okay but cant convince my brain to be happy with doing just anything. Unfortunately when I cant find anything to soothe this I impulse buy which can get me in some serious trouble. Like I impulse bought a VR headset ( i DO NOT have that kind of money btw) and I barley use the fucking thing because my apartment is so small and they take a lot of room. Not to mention no one in my friends group can afford one and a lot of the games are better with multiplayer. So now I have this useless game system that cost me a shit ton of money that put me in the hole. I see a lot of people on tiktok making positive light spins of ADHD and not a lot of them showing the horrors it can be. Which is why im kind of writing this somewhere. Its not all fun ditsy dumb stuff for some of us it can have us crying in bed.