i'm being more proactive in life today :)

yesterday kind of sucked. not in the way that anything particularly bad happened, but just that i was feeling mentally down and sluggish all day. well then i started feeling horribly ill at night, so that was something "particularly bad," but that was barely part of yesterday anyway, it was so late. but i had such a brain fog with my life yesterday, spent too much time coding and drank too much coffee, so it all resulted in a day that had me feeling down about life itself. paradoxically, feeling so sick might've helped me out, because it kind of was the catalyst that made me go "okay, i am not living tomorrow like i lived today. i will do things differently tomorrow." and i have been!

ive caught up somewhat with japanese by doing some of it at work like i should have yesterday, lol. but also at work ive actually been doing work, at least somewhat. making progress on a media packet i need to do before my boss returns from her vacation, which is a relief. i also haven't had coffee today (unless you count a starbucks caramel frappuccino, which i don't) and it hasn't been impacting me negatively to be without, which i'm pleasantly surprised by. i've also checked off a fair amount on my to-do list today--emailed the eye doctor, started a return on some shoes, etc etc. it feels good to be productive in these small ways.

i'm going to continue trying to eat better tonight. i just feel like the foods i've been eating, and how i've been eating them, is making me feel sick more often than not and i want to get a handle on it. that means using bowls/plates, making actual meals and not just taking handfuls of things whenever i pass them...stuff like that. i want to get back into the habit of doing that, even if i'm tired.

i don't know if i will work out today. my body has been in pain lately because i keep pulling things :/ so i don't know if it's best to work out. i can't even turn my head without shooting pain in my neck/back, lol. ...writing that out makes me feel like i'm silly for even considering working out, but we'll see! maybe the walk home will help? idk. but i'm glad about where i'm at right now ^_^