cinnamoroll love

just been feeling a lot of affection for cinnamoroll again lately. he's been my favorite sanrio for a long long time now, but he sort of fell into the background for me when i realized i was bigender. i felt for a long time like embracing the "boy" part of my boygirlness meant i couldn't show off cinnamoroll or bright colors or cute things. which is so...silly. obviously i know that isn't what makes masculinity. but still, i became so obsessed with being read as a guy for a while that i rejected all of it.

these days...it sounds sad, but i promise it's not. i've just kind of accepted that most people won't see me as a guy? but that doesn't bring me as much panic and unhappiness as it used to. at least to most people i hope like i'll seem like someone who has something going on with their gender. and that's okay.

anyways, all this to say i love cinnamoroll. he's a boy! and he's very pastel and sweet and full of love and cute vibes. he can be both and so can i <3 plus he's a dog and i'm feeling very connected to my dogsona lately so. just another connection <3 <3 <3