Life

It's like I want to kill myself everyday. I don't care about myself. I'm not like most people that worry about their wellbeing. Im trying my best just to get through, worrying about my safety doesn't occur to me. I feel like a disappointment to myself. I really am trying although it doesn't seem like it. I don't mind dying. I'd rather end it all then wait to see if it maybe will get better. I'm trying so hard. I'm trying so hard. I'm doing my best. It's getting tiring. I want to die everyday. I'd call 111 beforehand to save anyone I know finding me. I've let myself and everyone down. I just make everything worse. I know everything would have been better if i wasn't here.