burning star

hi nana. 

im 17 now. i wish i could say that i turn out to be someone u can be proud of because im not. life hasnt been treating me good but atleast im still alive.

i didnt grow up to be the person u thought i would be. i didnt get to finish school and i didnt enter college to become a doctor. i know i promised to become the best doctor. im sorry u cant brag about me to anyone. im sorry i cant treat u when u’re sick. instead im working in a bar now. 

u know how we would always say that i wont ever date until i turn 23? well good new im not datung anyone but i did popped my cherry a week after my 16 birthday. i didnt ask for it to happen it just does. i was raped by someone i trusted. 

did u know how my life went downhill from there on? i was raped and i didnt have anyone to talk to. u know how hard that was for me? i was in a dark place and all the things i could’ve do to myself that i didnt. 

my ex boyfriend used to take me to places i shouldn’t be. he introduced me to drugs and when i was in a dark place i thought he was god offering me the answer and solution to all my problems.