thoughts vs communication

greetings ppl. 2day i will be blogging about the weird little disconnect between my inner thoughts and the way i express them, verbally. ofc it's different for everyone, and in terms of 'usefulness' for others, this little rant will likely prove itself somewhat asinine. but like whatever this is just, like, A Thing ive been thinking about a lot recently and i wanna write about it, for myself at least.

2 start off, i have a sneaking suspicion that (for me at least) this issue stems from The 'Tism. as ive brought this topic up with my friends and it seems to resonate more with my autistic friends than my allistic friends. For me there is quite the disconnect between my inner thoughts and feelings and the manner in which i verbally communicate them to others. for example, sometimes i feel that i cannot communicate my own thoughts accurately verbally. whether this is because my thoughts are more abstract in nature and arent limited to a real language or im just Not Good At Talking To People, i can nearly never properly convey my thoughts in a manner that is as eloquent and succinct as they may be in my mind.

idk why im writing about this, and i definitely know that im probably not getting it across particularly well (especially as im feeling a bit unwell rn lol) and its very much 'waffly' and repetitive i know. but. like. idk. i just think its interesting. i know this is a thing for like. most ppl but i just wanted to get out my thoughts in words (to the best of my ability lmao)