How the heck do i exist after college

Ngl I think the hardest thing about life after college is that it didn't go how I expected it to, and I'm still learning how to deal with that.

I expected to have a job somewhere in the arts by now, yet I'm still doing retail. It's not a bad job, but it makes me anxious thinking that it's all I'm ever going to do because it's so exhausting and stressful, and I never feel like I'm doing anything meaningful. I can't live how I want to on this wage.

Like. What did I spend the last 4 years and thousands of dollars doing. Is it ever gonna get put to use? Why do I have such a hard time making art now?

On one hand I know that some people simply take longer to find their place in life, but on the other hand, I'm unhappy and I want to be doing something better. But I feel so burnt out on art rn and I don't know what to do.

IDK I'm in a way better place mentally than I was when I first graduated, but now I just find myself unsatisfied with my life and I'm not sure how to fix it.

Time, I guess?