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So. I’ve been on and off with my….Boyfriend?..fFor 3 years, I dunno if he’s still my boyfriend at this point we’re fighting. He’s a drug addict who’s had struggles, relapse and all. Well this is a time where shit has gotten bad again. I’m off all weekend until Monday so I booked us a hotel room and all that good stuff to get away from home for a lil. The whole time he was acting mad weird and when he got there he seemed kinda blank. He was saying things like “I wanna be able to take care of you.” “I only aant you no one else.” And his tone sounded as if something was wrong so I kept asking him was he upset because he went through withdrawal and couldn’t handle it. He said no he was fine. Then he wanted me to slide him some money so he could get high. I wouldn’t do it. Then he wanted me to get back my money for this hotel room and get one at the one down the road bc he knew he could get his supply for free with who was there. I said no. Because I knew it would take business days to get my money back and I also just wanted to sit down and chill tf out. So whole time he’s calling people, right? No one’ll come thru for him. Finally, he called his ex who just got out of jail and also the ex he broke up with right before she went to jail and she recently got out. So, of course, I flip shit because he’s on the phone w her tryna get picked up. He proceeds to tell me that she’s with a guy. I said I didn’t give a shit. He asks can she come up to the room. I said FUCK no. He said he’d be back and was going up the road and leaves me there for a whole night and day without checking in or anything so I’m blowing up his phone telling him how I feel, cussing him out. He gets back and has the nerve to come at ME crazy. Like you left me alone and went off w your ex to go get high and do whatever the fuck and I’m just supposed to sit here and patiently wait on you to come back? I told him he didn’t love nor care about me and how I felt anymore, Did I trip or nah?
Idk.
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rigor.mortis ♠
Literally drop himmmm. U were not trippin that was wilddd
I did! Lol had to bc that mess had me floored
by Sara⚡️; ; Report
mxrxsg_
u deserve better, for what u said here it just isnt worth it going thru all of this, hope everything is ok rn with u <3
Thank you I’m much happier where I am now
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by Sara⚡️; ; Report
Gege
idk bro I don't think u were trippin
Man see! At first, I was like damn I really should trust him because why tf I'm with him if I don't trust him. And we had been doing great I was just starting to feel better like he actually earned my trust back after a while. Then this went down and I thought about some situations that happened in the past and it triggered me so I showed my entire ass. I felt justified but when he came at me the way he did I was like shit, did I trip? The gaslighting is real with this man...
by Sara⚡️; ; Report
Leaving u alone to go get high is wilddd, i've never seen anything like that fr. That's good that u trust him tho, and that u made time for the both of u to relax
by Gege; ; Report
It was the leaving me alone to leave with another FEMALE that did it for me and his ex at that. No, I don't want him getting high period, but he had so many more male friends he could have called. I feel like part of the reason he called her was he knew she would either smoke the shit with him or he could womanize her into throwing him some for free. Either way you spin it it was disrespectful to me though. Had I called another dude to come get me and been gone for hours with no contact he would have started WWIII.
by Sara⚡️; ; Report
exactly! He could've just called one of his boys or smtng. Going out of his way to message his ex is crazy. Good on u for being mature and not escalating the situation tho
by Gege; ; Report
I wouldn't say I didn't escalate it, I did rip him a new one although I will say I could have and have done worse lol..But I did let him know how I felt and all I got was "you got me confused with someone else" and a "fuck you". I just checked out of the room I had and went back home because I didn't want to be alone fuckin' crying and waiting for him for possibly nothing. And if he did end up coming back all we were gonna be doing was fighting so. I'm not sure if I wanna be with him anymore. Every time things start going great they fall right back apart. If he was never on drugs I swear we wouldn't have gone through a chunk of the things we have.
by Sara⚡️; ; Report
I'm so sorry to hear that man :(( was he on drugs from the start of the relationship?
by Gege; ; Report
Yes! I knew nothing about how bad hard drugs actually got so I came in ignorant asf. I told him I wasn’t gonna judge him for what he did I just wasn’t about to do it myself. I thought they just made you act crazy for a little bit and then it would all be over when they came back down and the people who were on it looked like shit. He didn’t, he actually looked great and still does today but it is starting to show I’ll admit. And it’s never over once they come down I found that out after being with him for about a month. Theyll start seeing shit and acting crazy bc they haven’t slept for days from being on freaking speed. At first I thought maybe he was one of those who could maintain. Y’know a functioning addict but I was DEAD wrong. He introduced me to addiction I didn’t realize how bad that shit got either. I just figured he’d be feening for a fix when he didn’t have one. Didn’t think he would hurt me and anyone else that loved him when he couldn’t get his fix and had been up for days to the point of psychosis. When he gets too high or is withdrawing he becomes an absolute dick. When he’s clean he’s a fuckin’ angel. When takes his shit in moderation rather than binging it like usual he’s not so bad either. But when he’s had too much or can’t get any? Whew..
by Sara⚡️; ; Report