meow

i dont know what else to do with myself anymore , everything has been so shitty but not shitty at all . everything is just the same as its always been but for some reason im just not happy . i feel like im going fucking crazy and theres nothing i can do about it . ever since march break ive been feeling this way and maybe its because of that lil relapse i had ?? i dont know but it was a long time ago that probably isn't it , everything has stayed the same as its always been and as it always was when i was happy , but for some reason im just not . i just feel so miserable all the time no matter what i do , i just want things to go back to the way it was i cant do this again . meow meow meow .